For years, I have longed for many things: money, love, sex, housing, enlightenment, friendship and on and on and on. When the longing was strong, it sometime produced a bitter sweet sensation and with the pain of not possessing that which I longed for. Now I spend most of my longing romancing the repetition of Sat Nam. I simply long to repeat Sat Nam again and again. You may ask what kind of longing is that, to repeat Sat Nam over and over? What does it even mean? In its simplest form, Sat Nam means true name. Sat is truth, Nam is name. Nam can also translate as identity. My identity is true in the One Reality. I also believe that Sat Nam is the confirmation that God and Me, Me and God are one. That I have always been one with the Source, it is just an illusion that I have ever been separate. It is the possibility that I may live in constant Bliss, Happiness and Joy and that reality is beyond time and space. That this world is a dream and I will awaken from my sleep very soon, while in this lifetime. My real job is to first to awaken and then help others to recognize that they can wake up as well. Real people chant real mantras. And real people live eternally now and forever.